Khushi

I'm falling into pieces

The rush of emotions left me in a daze

I'm hanging on a balance.

I die a little each day

With just your memories

I am not quite myself

I wonder if I'll ever be me again

When there's no You.

I tried so hard to speak

But the silence is overwhelming

Somehow I am more content to bask in its presence

Than lose myself in words

That don't mean a thing.

Not anymore.

I blanket myself in darkness.

Though there's a blue sky up above

Choking my soul

Tearing me up inside.

'Cause though I dreamed of a Happy Ending
Life handed me a Tragedy instead

And this is my Lovestory.

 (((asheil.nov. 26.2011.saturday.2012hrs.)))

NOTE: this poem I wrote after I read Ravinder Singh's novel entitled I Too Had a Love Story

I am the One

Love is a temptress

Egging me on.

Calling out of the blue

Take my defenses down

And fall for you.

                                                  All my dreams would come true
                                                    It's all because I am with you.
                                        I have never imagined that I'd meet someone
                                             Who would adore me as much as you do.
                                                     Tell me I'm not dreaming.

                                                                  For I believe
                                                That there is that soulmate for everyone.

                                                         You're meant for me,
                                                         I am the one for you.


---asheil.June 11, 2011.Saturday.1039Hrs.

                                                image courtesy of desktopnexxus

Happy Ever After

In celebration of Valentine's Day, here's one of the limited happy love poems I have written. For all the lovers, and the hearts that never fail to believe in Love.

Been thinking about You
And there's a storm brewing inside of Me.
The look in your eyes enthralled me,
How sweet it feels,
How right it is.
The passion just runs so deep.
The tenderness mystifies me.
To open the once numb heart.

Some spell hangs suspended.
A serene magic settles in.

I've heard "I Love You" said many times
But only when you said them
Did the words mean anything.

A spontaneous change naturally flowed.
An immaculate tale happily told.
The course of love between you and I
Is like a glorious song,
Its melody boundless.

You and I are one.
  

--sdc.9.5.2011.Monday.2220--

Tears

A scorching sensation that seared the soul,
Hot and fiery river wanting to break free.
Sighs of hope muffled in its furnace.
Taking different courses,
Arising from a lone source.
Burning the path that crosses its way.
Traces of scars
That echoes the pulsing in my blood.

And so they gushed forth
When the dam of control broke loss.
An uncontrollable surge of welled-up emotion
Rushing through the final border of sorrow.

-----August 2, 1998, Sunday @ 12NN----

HeartSpeak

I memorize your face

Just in case I might miss you

The moment you turn away.

I memorize  the sound of your voice

To listen to when I'm feeling blue.

I memorize your touch

So I can have the warmest caress

At a moment's notice.

I miss you when we're apart

I miss you when we're together.

I miss you the very second I say

"I miss you."

But most of all,

When I say  I miss you

I really mean to say

I LOVE YOU.

Shimmers

A weary heart inside a broken soul,
Perpetual sorrow rarely given cure,
Revolving spheres of dismal expectations.

The sand beneath my feet
Crunching with each step
Deafening rantings I can barely control.

The floodgates are loosened,
Tears are rushing in,
Twin streaks of fiery pain,
Desperately seeking release off these emotional shackles.

And then,
A whiff of air blasts through,
Like an oracle predominantly displayed,
A rainbow amidst the storm.
Colors are beautifully merging,
Sounds are softly blending,
And stars are perfectly aligning,
A serene feeling descends.

My heart,
Be still.
Be still.

(((asheil.oct.23.2011.sunday.2154)))

Mirage

You're close enough for me to touch

                              Or could my mind be playing tricks on me again?
                                               Dream walking to where you are
                                                             As time stood still.
                                                Flitting images pass before me
                                          A myriad of colors drifting in and out.
                                                      Glaring at something
                                                     But not knowing what.
                                          A mirage that doesn't come alive.
                                         Leaving a hollow feeling deep inside.

                                                        I'm left in this place     
                                      Where you don't even remember me.
                                                   I am empty, I am numb
                                 Lose myself in countless dreams and images
                                         Wishing they may just be real
                                          And I'm really there with you.

                                               But just like yesterday
                                              And all the days before
                                   Only an imprint of you survives,

                                                  I SUFFER IN SILENCE.

                                                          asheil.July 9, 2011. Saturday.1415Hrs